Left Behind

30 December 2004

I gazed to the sky and found a star which shined so bright like a spotlight beaming on me. Then, I looked around and saw flashes of lights- blurred visions of faces. Some faces were familiar to me but some remained to be just faces. Nevertheless, they were all moving so rapidly that by simply watching them come from all directions made me nauseus.
I extended my arm to the highway of lights as one normally hails a cab. Nobody stopped. I frantically grabbed on to anything I saw hoping to get a piece of them so that I could say someday that they have been a part of me and I have been a part of them. To my dismay and disappointment, my hand returned nothing but air.
My sight becomes hazy. I closed my eyes and opened it again. Tears fell.
Now, it is clear. An ideal set-up: an acquaintance becomes a friend then a special friend. But in the real "crazy mixed up" world, an acquaintance could be a lover; a friend would just be a friend; and a special friend could be a secret enemy.
C'est la vie. People come and go.
I searched the sky for my star but it's no longer to be found. Dark clouds worsens the already gloomy night.

exhaled by milbenski at 5:44 PM | 3 comments

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Anonymous Anonymous blabbered...

hey!
you really are a good writer, do you know that?
and grabe man, every entry reflects how emotional you are right now. i hope i can help... but please tell me how. i don't get to see you a lot nowadays and i would be glad if i could do something for you. and as any friend would say, im just here. this is milky nga pala. you are in my prayers as all of my friends are. wish you a liberating new year, one that would set you free from all those worries and fears and whatever that keeps you from living life to the fullest! and hope you wish same for me.. haha! God bless you alaways dude!

1:50 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous blabbered...

can't believe my "shock absorber" for my love angst and stuff is going through all these. too bad i'm not there to reciprocate the encouragement you've given me. as you've put it before, "find solace in your loneliness, but then there might come a time when solitude won't be enough. not healthy." you know who to hold on to. btw, are you in love? got that impression from all your recent writings. perhaps you are, just not admitting it to yourself. or perhaps you're in love with the idea of being in love. don't be. just look what love's done to me. haha... seriously, if you're in love, pray about it. if you're in love with the idea, stop it, right now! love comes at its own perfect timing. you don't search for it, it just comes.

and yes, people come and go (like me). we might lose some and gain some. friends change in split-seconds. they're all part of our lives. it's sad to give away little parts of ourselves to people who leave us behind. we just might end up with nothing for ourselves. nevertheless, you could save up the little parts others give you of themselves instead. consider yourself blessed to have friends, acquaintances, and even enemies within reach of you. some have none... like me...

btw, ket here. can't log in. something's wrong with blogger here.

5:25 PM

 
Blogger bobbiedibabidibuh blabbered...

A man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother. -Proverbs 18:24-
;)

4:39 PM

 

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